I wasn’t even born there. I am a first generation child & grandchild of English & Irish immigrants & was born in Florida but I was practically raised there every summer since I was born. Half of my family & friends live there & even less than half of my family live here.
It’s been years since I last been. I was 16.
It’s very indescribable feeling. I don’t even know why but nostalgia & homesickness is plaguing me. It’s very powerful and I don’t know why lately I’ve been clinging to it.
I don’t even think it’s based on reality, more of an romantic idea of a past that isn’t the same anymore. Like it’s somehow comforting. I still feel a strong connection.
I don’t feel truly "American" & yet I am not quite fully English/Irish either. I’m torn between the two and I feel like I have a confused identity because of it. I relate to both but don’t quite fit in either one. I mean I know it’s not a drastic cultural difference or anything: They are both English-speaking western first world cultures and it’s not a huge identity crisis or anything lol but to be honest I relate more the Irish/English side than this “American” side.
I can’t even go a day without a cup of tea for god’s sake. I even drive around in a British flag adorned red Mini Cooper! I am the number one British sterotype lol.
I am a hybrid - It’s awkward lol
Are there any others out there like me?